The countdown begins

Only a few more days until I get to see you again. It's been forever since I've seen you... I miss you Mr.Lacrosse player, I hope you've missed me too. We've been talking for a little bit lately, and you've asked if I like anyone and I know I've made myself obvious to you and how I feel, I hope you've picked up on those messages I've been sending you, and maybe you'll make my birthday a little bit more special.. 

February

Keep on dreaming; you'll get it soon!

Great news! I got what I've worked hard for! My placement, I've waited nearly a year for it, and now I have it. The greatest phone call I've ever had!
Just goes to show, you get what you dream of, if you've work your butt off for it!
Sincerely,
February

I want to be that girl

I want to be the girl you like.
Girl you cuddle, the girl you kiss the girl that you make laugh.
I want to be the girl that makes you smile, and hold your hand.
I want to be the girl that you feel comfortable crying in front of, because a guy who shows his true feelings is a man who is sexy and hot, not childish or wimpy.
I want to be the girl that you like..
I want to be the girl you randomly hug, and kiss my forehead,
I want to be the girl to go to all of your games and cheer you on, and even if you lose, I tell you it's okay, I still love you.
I want to be the girl that makes you your favourite foods and desserts whenever I can, and when every you want them.
I want to be that girl you like...
Sincerely,
February

You don't know or understand.

We've been best of friends for 11 years now. We've had our ups and downs. I've told you all of my secrets. I've told you the struggles I've been experiencing, but i don't think you care, you're more concerned about you're own life... I guess that's fine, you can continue to not listen, and be in your own world, but realize that, this attitude won't get you anywhere. When I asked you how much I owe you, you respond with you know, but personally I don't. I have more things to worry about then that, and so I forget to tell you who's coming to the mall with us,  I have more important things to worry about... You can continue to have your little bitterness, but realize that this attitude won't get you anywhere. Just grow up, I'm tired of dealing with childish ways and attitudes.
I've been debating this now for a while, but are you even worth being my friend if I have to worry about what I tell you in case you have a bitch fit?
Once you tell me how much I owe you, and I pay you, I think we should just take a break for a few weeks...
Please understand and open your eyes and your ears, there's important things passing you and you're missing them all.
Sincerely,
February 

Difference between...

Dear people in my third period class.... yes I want to be a police officer one day maybe, not a lawyer.. when you asked me "why don't you want to be a lawyer, because being a police officer is the same thing as a lawyer."
Hate to break it to you but they're not... AT ALL! First of all they only relate because they fall under the field of work in law.. that's the only way they are similar.
Police fight crime, they put the bad behind bars.
Lawyers fight for "the right" of people... the way I see it, a lawyer is hired to defend both the guilty and the innocent. They defend the ones put behind bars....for the crime they committed, the guilty ones... I'm sorry I refuse to help a murder get out of prison by playing the, mentally unstable card or he's really sorry for what he did, or my client did not commit this crime... NOT HAPPENING!
Being a Police officer and a Lawyer are two different careers, not the same at all....
I had to get that off my chest...

February

Valentine's Day

February 14th, the day that you either love or hate, you're either pro-Valentine's day or anti-Valentine's day.
I personally don't mind it. I find I celebrate it on my own most of the time by making myself a good meal, wear comfortable clothes like sweat pants, my hair in a messy bun, have my fuzzy peaches and watch a variety of movies, I guess, I am my own Valentine and in a way, my own best boyfriend, I mean, I buy exactly what I want, I let myself have my "ugly" days, I put make-up on if I want to, I find myself pretty no matter what, the only thing I can't do is give myself my own boyfriend hug which I'd love to have....
Mr.Valentine where are you? I need a hug and a Daisy maybe...
February

Blah.

There's so much going on in my life right now I feel, yet I don't have that much. I guess I just have a lot going on in my mind and I've been wondering and worrying about a lot lately.
 Will I get this placement that I really want? and if I do get it, how behind will I fall? Will I like it?
 Why hasn't he texted me back? I thought we're friends?
 Will everything go smooth this month?
 I hope my birthday celebration goes well.
 Did I pass all of my first semester classes? Will I reach my goal of an 80% average at the end of this year? Will I be going to summer school this year to get ahead of the game next year?
Are people looking at me weirdly because I dyed my hair?
Does that boy from English like me? Why does he keep looking at me in the halls? Why is he so polite and hang out with the ass holes of the school?
Will the idea I have to change my hair next work out as well as I hope it does?
 Should I be worried about all of this?
These are probably the reasons I can't sleep at night.
Ughh....
February